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My dearest friend, all of that and many more and you are still wondering!!
Why memories are glued to my days?
Why the clock ticks and time doesn't pass?
Why I'm shadowed with every step on my path?
Why when I narrow my world it comes to one person "her"?
Why when I'm fully alive, I'm still imprisoned inside?
Why the reflection in the mirror isn't mine anymore?
Why memories are glued to my days?
Why the clock ticks and time doesn't pass?
Why I'm shadowed with every step on my path?
Why when I narrow my world it comes to one person "her"?
Why when I'm fully alive, I'm still imprisoned inside?
Why the reflection in the mirror isn't mine anymore?
Because all I am is because of her.
Because when you truly love someone, she's in your heart, in your mind and never really gone and keep coming back anytime all the time.
Because the absence is too excruciating for my heart and mind to bear.
Because the memories take my mind off the impossibility of my condition.
Because she's everywhere and everything.
Because she's the ultimate inevitable in my life.
Because when you truly love someone, she's in your heart, in your mind and never really gone and keep coming back anytime all the time.
Because the absence is too excruciating for my heart and mind to bear.
Because the memories take my mind off the impossibility of my condition.
Because she's everywhere and everything.
Because she's the ultimate inevitable in my life.
It's my anniversary and I choose to live it for the sound that used to be and the remaining residing silence, for the warmth that once existed in my iced veins. I refuse to skip a single heart beat without thinking about her.
I wonder if the she acknowledges the date. I wish her all the best as I love her and miss her to the point an atom splits with its desires with every pulse in my heart.
Written beautifully.
ReplyDeleteI googled 212 for some reason. I had a temptation to do so. I'm thankful I did.
http://www.212movie.com/
Check it out, I know you'll love it.
time to move on..
ReplyDeleteLove is a complex emotion isn't it?
ReplyDeletelive it as long as its adding to your happiness. If it does otherwise, well it just shouldn't
Best of Luck
Holding on to what has escaped you, does it make any sense??
ReplyDeleteThe moments that passed they were yours, so take of them what made you happy, and know in your heart that no one can change that you had them and lived them, if it was meant to be it shall be, so just let go and move on, you never know what lays ahead of you deary
just a thought..
ReplyDeleteYou shouldn't move on..
You should grief until you accept it...until you say what is done is done. but if you move on without reflecting..introspecting...it will come back in bits and pieces for the rest of your life...but keep in mind that there is light at the end of the tunnel. life in itself is beautiful and we just shouldnt take it for granted..and there will come a day when you will get what you just..deserve.
you have a gift. You are capable in loving to the fullest and dont underestimate nor lose it in your everyday life
Touching stack of thoughts...
ReplyDelete>> N. :
ReplyDeleteChecked it out, truly interesting and amazingly pertinent.
Thank you for the link, thoughts provoking.
You keep astonishing me :)
>> Sloth:
As you live, you pick up all your experiences with you.
Some of the weight gets too heavy along the ride and you start to drop few things to maintain your bearable weight as you pick new stuff for the remaining distance.
You move on as time goes by and you hold on tight to those things that define you.
>> Kaos:
Living it, breathing it and holding on to it.
>> Someday:
Logically, it doesn't hold any sense to it, but what does sense has to offer in the presence of emotions.
Why do we crave for certain thing in the middle of the nights?
Why do we suddenly feel the grueling guilt in our guts for ancient mistakes we've committed?
Why we do things automatically because we're used to it without putting sense to them?
"The moments that passed they were yours, so take of them what made you happy"
My sentiment exactly.
My post's aim wasn't depressing as it might seem. It's the gratefulness for those moments and life I had and that I shall carry along the way.
Loved your comment.
>> Hope:
"Grieving has been good to me"
Lovely comment. Comments like those prevent me from regretting to disable comments for this particular post.
I just can't reply to it as it's so perfect and anything more said might ruin the beauty of it.
>> Desert Roses:
Thank you.
Piles and stacks overflowing.
>> Blue Ice Envy:
My pleasure!!
*sigh* touching... like it ;)
ReplyDelete*hug* loved your post..
ReplyDeleteIt really touched me ,,
ReplyDeletemy GOD very beautiful ,
I loved it :)
>> Orangina Fadidra:
ReplyDeleteThanks.
>> Vixen:
Thank you.
>> Out of Reach:
Glad you liked it.
Where is she ?!
ReplyDeleteYou have chosen words and set them in a very clear sentences
ReplyDeleteTo bring out your feelings
I’ve enjoyed reading it
But if this is true???!!!
Then as the others said to you
You have to move on
And to think for the future
Love is for ALLAH
He is the only one who deserve our feelings
Every thing in this life is going to be destroyed
Deal with things in this life as your Allah asked you to do so
You have great feeling and a gift that allow you to explain your self and to know what is happening around you
You can start and move from where you are
I wish you a very good life
since im new to ur blog, i haven't a clear picture of ur situation.. but from wht i understood, i agree with 'Hope'... sometimes a person can find pleasure in grieving, just the thoughts of the happy times give u a warm feeling all over.
ReplyDeleteBut one shouldn't be too hard on himself/herself to the point of giving up on life...
P.S. u got talent my friend, i was truly drawn into ur post;)
"miss her to the point an atom splits "..wow!
ReplyDeleteJust remember things do happen for a reason...you are a better person because of this experience...cherish it... there are bigger and better dreams are waiting for you to accept them. Don't let the past experiences to define you, move and LIVE YOUR LIFE FULLY!
That really is pure love... With white intentions..... with all what it could mean.
ReplyDeleteImpressively amazing.
Sometimes, when you are in love you really wonder if the other person does feel the same exact way and yet you keep in mind the possibility that from how much you really love and cherish them they could not reach that same level of love you carry for them.
That's why Love is so complex!
As Pink say: Love is such a crazy thing. Never understand the way I feel... is this love for real..?
(Cuz some people feel lust and think they're in love... and some people feel both and still question themselves if they're in love)
Nice blog by the way.
>> Cat:
ReplyDeleteForced to take separate ways.
>> Manal q8:
I'm moving on but not necessarily according to the common definition. I'm not blaming anyone or anything for the circumstances. That's my destiny and I'm accepting it.
It's just moving on as if letting things go and having a fresh start without any memories is as becoming rootless according to my dictionary. And I don't think it's conflicting with God in any way.
Thank you for the wishes :)
>> Lone Ranger'ess:
That's a huge compliment, thanks.
It's not self-destruction neither giving up on life. It's just you realize that life has many plans for you and many things to offer.
The way I see it, you get to taste a little bit of everything if you are real lucky and hope to be fortunate enough to have a permanent taste of those things that add to your life.
Hope's comment speaks volumes.
>> Frieda:
My intentions exactly :)
Life has many things to offer and I plan to enjoy whatever comes on the journey.
Past experiences do mold things in you and you tend to carry the residuals into your heart as you follow your path.
>> Canc3rian:
It tends to be complex if the reasons for such love aren't clear.
You ask yourself why do you love that person and fully understand what you give and what you gain from such emotional exchange and voilla everything is conspicuous.
Sometimes you don't need to have an equal massive emotions to go on with your love. Just enough love to fit your needs and to keep you loving them more.
Thanks for the compliment :)
There's so many things I wish I could tell you.
ReplyDelete2/12 is his birthday.
17/12/2007 is an anniversary.
1 year since he left.
I hope this helps.
Use your memories to make yourself happy, don't let them make you sad.
As for moving on, it's hard. Trust me, I know. But you have to make the effort. Once you get past the initial inertia of rest (chuckle), it'll get easier from there, I promise.
When girls are left behind by men who toss their heart aside when the marriage topic comes up I understand why the girls are heartbroken and HELPLESS.
ReplyDeleteBut I read parts of your post, and there's such an icredible amount of defeat in it. Sweet. Loving. But just standing there on the side and accepting to miss her. You're a man. And you love her. Why don't you finally pop the question?
I don't know. These things really hurt me. I hate reading this stuff because I really feel your pain. And I really wish that it would dissipate. But also...it frustrates me, REALLY frustrates me, when MEN don't take the initiative, when they accept to stay in the background and wait, when they relish in the romance of the pain rather than roll their sleeves up and say what can I do to fix this?
Sorry if any of this hurts you further. May God heel your heart and bring to you the woman that deserves it and that you deserve.
Sometimes circumstances are so huge..they overcome love..
ReplyDeleteunfortunately..we do not live in an ideal world..
"We don't live in an ideal world"
ReplyDeleteExactly. Which is the hardest slap I tend to give myself every now and then.
I also think love in this part of the world is more complicated than elsewhere, if you know what I mean.
>> Ri:
ReplyDeleteI've read that post and and had to smile the idea of relating "stupid" to healing and getting over it.
I find it hard to hold on to bad memories as the good ones are vanquishing and dominating the stream.
How ironic when it comes to the dates "212"
Check N's link "212" , it's surprisingly influential
Appreciate the support.
>> Anonymous:
It's not defeat, longing isn't about cursing life and circumstances. It's peaceful memories that dwell my heart and mind.
Non taken :)
It had been popped and turned down and forced to take separate ways. I think that might clear things up.
If the circumstances are too severe and having to face extreme difficulties to be granted with an approval.
>> Hope:
Couldn't put it any better.
It summarizes the whole thing in a single sentence.
>> Canc3ian:
Agreed, too many angles to cover though the thing is supposed to be so simple.
is it one-side love?
ReplyDeleteits sad after a breakup, but there is always one side that hangs on to it while the other moves on. sorry for you loss; well, its actually her loss for leaving someone who cared so much about her
ReplyDelete>> Outkasty:
ReplyDeleteIt was not the case.
>> Ammaro.com:
Definitely it's excruciating when you part someone who means the world to you.
It's my great loss indeed but that's life and I got used to it.
P.S.
Wasn't a real breakup, more of a forced mutual agreement that families shall never approve and agree for a commitment.
You migh have heard this before and it may not apply to you but sometimes we dwell over the loss of a loved one for a long time when we don't have someone/something else to replace the emptiness. You should find something or someone else.
ReplyDelete"Why the reflection in the mirror isn't mine anymore? Because all I am is because of her.
ReplyDeleteBecause when you truly love someone, she's in your heart, in your mind and never really gone and keep coming back anytime all the time."
"Because she's everywhere and everything.
Because she's the ultimate inevitable in my life."
"I wonder if the she acknowledges the date."
"As you live, you pick up all your experiences with you.
Some of the weight gets too heavy along the ride and you start to drop few things to maintain your bearable weight as you pick new stuff for the remaining distance.
You move on as time goes by and you hold on tight to those things that define you."
"Why do we crave for certain thing in the middle of the nights?
Why do we suddenly feel the grueling guilt in our guts for ancient mistakes we've committed?
Why we do things automatically because we're used to it without putting sense to them?"
"The moments that passed they were yours, so take of them what made you happy"
You know what? I could go on and on and repeat all you words, but I think I will never finish..you are amazing!! mashallah
I had my share almost with everything you went through, but I didnt stop..no body had the power to do so, I was me and not them, I chose my life, and God fortunatly wrote what I fought for in my destiny..
I was in love with her, and Im more than in love with her now..
I wish you the best man..
thanx for the amazingly written words.
>> Anonymous:
ReplyDeleteAppreciate the advice. Thank you.
Rebounding to someone else is a tricky thing; I don’t think that many have the capabilities to endure it. It’s a rebound which is rootless and grounded to thin air while trapping you into a dreadful preset comparison.
Channeling your emotions towards someone is a ticking bomb and too many flaws in the theory. It adds nothing but shame, misery, guilt and an extra fragile layer to what has been broken. It might work for some but for it’s nothing but a wrong turn which makes it harder to sleep at night. It's the worst feeling ever and the worst conscience nightmare anyone could possibly bare.
And I’ve been there and still and always hate myself for it.
The way I see it is to channel your emotions towards family and friends and towards things that might add to you or things that you’ve been neglecting before and now it’s the time to be fair to them.
>> Kella Met2a5er:
Your kind words rank the top of all the comments I’ve received.
"I was me and not them, I chose my life, and God fortunately wrote what I fought for in my destiny"
Seeing someone who shared a similar ride with a happy ending and a satisfaction is a delightful feeling. I'm glad it worked out for you.
Thanks a million. Reading your comment while reading my words managed to put me in a de-javu where the words are yours as you've been there and had that share. It revives my soul greatly and truly warms the heart.
I can never put in words the overwhelming feeling your words levitated me to.
Holy smokes! Look at all the comments you get. Touche, you really know your audience; you really get their attention and they are compelled to respond. Amazing.
ReplyDeleteWell, all I can say is LUCKY SHE.
ReplyDelete>> Intl Xpart:
ReplyDeleteIt is amazing that this post got massive throbbing responses.
Ironically, I wanted to disable the comments for that particular post.
We tend to respond to incidents that resonate to our lives. In a time where everything seems to revolve around super sized egos and materialistic values, people are yearning for emotions.
I have to admit, the responses had some magical effect on rejuvenating the heart with the absent love. Strange and illogical but true.
>> Loura:
ReplyDeleteTo be more exact, lucky me that I had her in my life, for the memories she left me and for the complete world that I had.
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ReplyDelete"bel2ams kano ma3y walyawma 8ad ra7alo"
ReplyDelete>> Z.:
ReplyDeleteIndeed, gone and this is what’s left.
ya ba5t haaa ally eb balek
ReplyDeletei wish i find someone like u :)
r u real @@
>> Feelings Talk:
ReplyDeleteThank you, that’s very sweet of you.
I’m sure you will someone to cherish you. Who knows a lightning might strike.