Happy Birthday My Love 2011

I bask in joy thinking of you with delight seeping through the corners of my eyes into a drought heart, the omission of you from my thoughts only makes life intolerable. With every present moment is the repetition of what I've and shared and lived with you, I can only say happy birthday my love.

"Time has marched onward slowly as memories persist,

Years seem as only months; months seem as only days,

It has been so long, yet, seems as yesterday, since I held you in my arms,

An infinitely longer time since I kissed your sweet lips,

Another Fourth of July has passed with explosions in the air,

With my heart still exploding with hauntingly memories of us,

Once long, long ago we were inseparable, passionate lovers

I could not keep my eyes off of you; fearing that you would disappear,

The day which I hold most sacred is upon me, again,

A date which was written in the stars; the day that you were born,

The most beautiful day I have ever known in this life,

That special day the Heavens introduced you into our world,

Not knowing that it would be you that I would fall madly in love with,

And in love with you I had fallen as I had never known love before!

I do not know where you are today nor if you are doing well or not,

I hope that you have found the happiness and life I could not give you,

In this poem I send you all my best wishes and love which lingers in me,

Sending this ode to you telepathically: I know that your soul has received it:

Happy Birthday, my love! No matter how far you are from me;

No matter how long ago last we were together; time and space are meaningless,

Happy Birthday, to you my darling! Wherever you may be,

But today on your special day your spirit is with me, evermore,

Happy Birthday, to you my sweetness! I do not know where you are today,

May the Great Powers of the universe bless you; may they keep you warm,

Happy Birthday, my love! A kiss from my lips to your lips I send you,

The same one we kissed innumerable times when we were one,

Happy Birthday, my love! I am sending to you all the love in my heart,

A great love that has never died for a true love never ever dies,

Happy Birthday, to you my love! I am here alone celebrating my agonies,

Wishes things were another way; wishing your were with me, again, to stay,

Happy Birthday, my love! I remember you on your day with tenderness,

With all the love that still dwells in my heart for you,

Happy Birthday, to you my love! Memories of love abound,

Happy Birthday, to you my darling! I miss you eternally,

Happy Birthday, to you my love! I hope you remember me, today,

Happy Birthday, to you my sweetness! Remembering our great romance,

Happy Birthday, to you my love! Why did I have to lose you?

Happy Birthday, my love! Why have the Heavens punished me so immensely?

Happy Birthday, to you my love! Who knows where you dwell, today?

Happy Birthday, to you my love! Who knows if you are happy or sad, today?

Happy Birthday, my love! I do not know where you are, today?

Happy Birthday, my darling! Do you ever remember me?

Happy Birthday, my love!

Wherever you may be."

"Serenade of Love" by Ricardo Sal LaRosa

Happy Birthday My Love 2010

Years are passing by and yet this day is my highlight every year, it’s a day like no other in my calendar, the day when I celebrate you when I used to whisper my wishes into your ears. It’s the day that carries soft winds rocking memories in their cradle, and evoking waves of longing to a life that had passed me by with nothing but blank pages that all I’m left with. In this day your memories color the remaining days of the year and even though I’m not there to celebrate your birthday with you, my heart is basking in joy for you, my heart is with you.

I’ve always wondered, how years have been treating you? How gently they've touched your face? And today I found out that you’ve been blessed with motherhood. I’ve been anticipating this day for the last few years and now I’m overwhelmed with rapid flow of memories flooding me, the dream that I've shared with you and to witness the dream that I’ve always wished for is breathtaking, I dreamed of every detail and yet the reality surpasses my imagination. The true happiness in your eyes, the scintillating glow on your face, the loveliest baby bump and the most sparkling smile illuminating your face are tingling my heart with rapture and shaking me with indescribable emotions, it’s in image that will never part me, an image I've always wished to be part of it.

It’s the moment that I would have dearly sacrificed anything to share it with you, to witness your ultimate dream, to know that you’ve had your wish come true. I can hear your laughs and I can feel your joy, had I been there I would’ve showered you with my love.

I knew you were long gone and eventually you’ll be a mother. I’ve often wondered how would your baby look like? Is he as adorable is you? Does he look like you? What did you name him? I know for a fact what a great mother you’ll be, you’ve always been the best with kids and I know how lucky he is to have you as a mother.

I’ve always imagined this moment and the mere thought of it makes my heart skips a beat, but why do tears moist my eyes with intricate emotions that I can’t even comprehend? Why does the sadness creep in and dilute my happiness? Why do I have trouble breathing? Why do I feel life is motionless? Why do I feel entirely paralyzed? Why do I feel that I’ve aged decades in seconds? Why does it feel like the first day we parted? Why do I feel lost in the darkness? Why does my happiness conceal bitterness? Is it that I’ve always imagined myself as the father of your baby? It is the envious to the father of your child? Is it that I’ll never be the father of your child? Is it the vanished hope? Or is it the crushed dream of being the father of your child

Why does it feel like when we decided to be friends and I ended up miserably? When we thought it will prepare us to deal with the inevitable, when I thought seeing you getting married and happy will vanquish my lost love, when my heart got torn off and ripped to pieces knowing that I’m the living dead and nothing will ever prepare me for my soul departure. I knew you’ll be a mother and contemplated everything but yet I cannot help to taste the bitterness with my joy to witness your dream.

In this year I celebrate you my love and your new born love, the love that had journeyed me far beyond the unknown to a world that I imagined myself wrapped in your arms. In this year I thank you as ever for the joy within me and I thank God for allowing me to see you blessed with the sweetest fruit derived from your gentle seed, I'll blow a candle knowing that an angel is born and shining your life. Happy birthday to the greatest tale ever told, to the loveliest mother and the final note in the sweetest symphony ever composed, happy birthday my love.

27/27

It’s your 27th birthday my love and I have to sum up what’s left in me to open your box of memories to look at them one more time, to unleash hundreds of moments storming my soul. Everyday, a memory is resurrected, vivid as the sun, warming my heart by floods of emotions and showers of your scents paralyzing my senses. I love you more every passing day, more than any heart's capacity and more than any divine perception. I miss life through your eyes.

I see you in my dreams and I still miss you everyday, I still long for one more word, for one more single moment to nurture my heart. I miss your laughs provoking angels jealousy, I miss your kind heart making heaven greener, I miss your voice trembling my heart.

We are who we love and I’m proud to be who you are. You’ve softened all my rough edges and completed me; my soul longs for you, you’ve breathed life in me and bestowed me your love, I'm the luckiest person for ever knowing you and I'm all your doing.

I once was intact and now I’m damaged goods.

I once was alive and now I’m a ghost.

I once had dreams and now they’re myths.

I once was human and now I’m a shadow.

I once had love and now you’re gone.

I once was there and now I’m lost.


You've grown and I'm sure you're scintillating as ever, I've always wished we could age together, and all I have now is the memory of that wish. My only consolation is that God works in mysterious ways that it must have been for your best , I hope it turned out prosperous. Happy birthday my love and I wish you myriad more.

Happy Birthday My Love 2008

It’s your birthday; I've never forgotten it and never will.

I wonder what’s your birthday story going to be like? Who are you going to share it with and who will tease you that you’ve grown one more year older.

Words are eluding me when there are so many things I want to say. I miss you, I love you and I hope you are happy wherever you are.

You are gone and here I am, fulfilling my promise to celebrate your birthday. You’ve never left my thoughts and have been shadowing my breathes. As you blow your candles, my heart will embrace that split second and wish you a happy long life.

I wish that you're being compensated for your sad life which was nothing but a disaster zone.

I wish your smile never departs your lips with a real satisfaction with life.

I wish that your road leads you to flourishing ends.