Sunday, December 2, 2007

212 :: The Anniversary



Dates .. Colors .. Cars .. Hopes .. Dreams .. Movies .. Nails .. Numbers .. Places .. Jogging .. Scents .. Harry Potter .. Fruits … Croissants .. Breakfasts .. Morning Calls ... Penguins .. Red .. Clothes .. Elections .. Areas .. Designs .. Ramadan .. TV Series .. Tears .. Babies .. Songs .. Words .. Pictures .. Sweet & Sour .. Shoes .. Sounds .. Cinemas .. Exhibitions .. Roads .. Winter .. Secrets .. Names .. Pictures ..

My dearest friend, all of that and many more and you are still wondering!!
Why memories are glued to my days?
Why the clock ticks and time doesn't pass?
Why I'm shadowed with every step on my path?
Why when I narrow my world it comes to one person "her"?
Why when I'm fully alive, I'm still imprisoned inside?
Why the reflection in the mirror isn't mine anymore?
Because all I am is because of her.
Because when you truly love someone, she's in your heart, in your mind and never really gone and keep coming back anytime all the time.
Because the absence is too excruciating for my heart and mind to bear.
Because the memories take my mind off the impossibility of my condition.
Because she's everywhere and everything.
Because she's the ultimate inevitable in my life.
It's my anniversary and I choose to live it for the sound that used to be and the remaining residing silence, for the warmth that once existed in my iced veins. I refuse to skip a single heart beat without thinking about her.
I wonder if the she acknowledges the date. I wish her all the best as I love her and miss her to the point an atom splits with its desires with every pulse in my heart.